Halloooo friends Friday’s are my hardest days with Nicholas being away @ school. It never fails that at some point during my day that wonderful Friday hits me, where I think “Yay, it’s Friday… wonder what Nicholas and I……” for the realization to hit and reality smashes in with “Nope it’s just you and Hannah, or, it’s just you….”
The sting of Friday’s is starting to fade and I’m trying to be more “on purpose” about making plans for Friday’s so that when the realization hits throughout the day I can replace it with something I am looking forward to.
Living life on purpose takes courage. I hit the gym hard with the help of an incredible personal trainer who believes that I can make the changes I dream of into a reality. I’ve been going 5 days a week, with no excuses. Around week 3 I broke down crying near the end of a workout… it wasn’t because Darcey was kicking my ass (which he was) but it was because I could see how much of an uphill battle was ahead of me. Before I had Hannah I was lifting 25-30lbs for curls, and here I am struggling to lift 5lbs over my head!
…well October 1st was my official back to being in control of my life. I received a call end of September from my doctor who told me that “I can push myself as much as I want now and that I am able to live my life with as much adventure as I wanted with ZERO restrictions!” So taking his advice literally my body transformation is 100% kick started! In a 3 week period I lost an overall body inch loss of 11 INCHES & from October 1st to November 7th I lost 10.5 lbs
…not a bad start eh?! Teehee I’m oober excited and keeps me motivated to keep going!
I feel as if pushing myself @ the gym is my way of celebrating being a survivor. I am elated to be in control of my body. The last 10 years took a toll on my mentally, physcially, financially and now only GREEN lights are ahead. Life isn’t without struggle but it’s how we choose to face those hard times.
Life has a way of grabbing hold and pulling you along for a ride. I’ve always considered myself someone who doesn’t like to go with the herd mentality; I enjoy being different. Writing is freeing for me and I miss it. End of January I was rediagnosed with cancer, and it rocked me to my core silly! This time though I had a wonderful friend along with my son and daughter and their friends to support me. My faith grew and my strength of character grew. God always seems to send me the right people into my life at the right time… for all the people that chose to walk out of my life I had many more run into it with open arms and they are the ones that I cherish the most. My church family became my true family and were such incredible supporters, who taught me that it’s ok to be vulnerable. Actually being vulnerable is a true strength and allows more people into your lives that can be open and honest in return. Scary as hell but so worth it!
In April I had a hysterectomy, where 1 month later I received the news that my 10 year on and off battle with cancer had come to an end. It’s over; really over! Wow! Right?! ….but where are the fireworks? Why wasn’t I celebrating fully and jumping and screaming from the roof tops?! I had to question myself…. what started to occur was a brillant new reality where my life was all laid out on a path ahead of me; a wonderful gift! What will I do with this gift?…. LIVE and LOVE without excuses. In fact, cancer had indeed held me back; well NO MORE! Over the last 4 months since living a beautiful life subtle thoughts and experiences are settling in and I am able to put cancer behind me and look forward to my beautiful blessed life.
…I have much to update you on my wonderful kids, but next time. For now all I will say is they are doing well and each experiencing new and exciting adventures ahead of them. Nicholas is at college in Toronto living out his dreams of persuing Theatre Arts and being trained by the best. Hannah is now an orange belt in Jujitsu and we are both learning how to survive in a house and life with Nicholas actively participating in in… it’s going to take time.
Thank you for sticking with me friends and reaching out to me by emails
I received an email from Neale Donald Walsh, author of “Conversations with God” and at first glance I loved it… as I walked with this advice throughout my day it really dug in on a sub-level and struck me as wonderfully empowering and now the advice is starting to sink in on a subconscious level which I love- the reason why? God will always see us through anything!
“It is never safe to look into the future with eyes
Edward H. Harriman said that, and he was right. Nothing
is fearful lest thinking make it so. I can honestly say that
probably 95% of the things I was afraid of, it turned out
I had no reason to be.
And even if the thing you fear happens…so what? Again,
95% of the time your world is not going to fall apart, your
life will not be in danger. So drop fear by the wayside.
Just… let it go. Then make way for a surprising tomorrow.
I’m excited for you to take this advice in your own life …even when facing disaster we miss the beauty of right now, especially the wonderful people that surround you in the right now that are here for you to support you through the “no matter what”
Live for today and love each and every minute of it!
I know all to well that life is just too short to be wondering, “What if?” It’s time for “Just DO!” Be vulnerable and push past the fears that keep you “safe” Safe keeps us stuck… so face your fears and have all that your heart desires! I am trying to do just that ♥
Served cold… I put in freezer for 1 hour and moved to refrigerator for 2 hours to set. So easy to make and it was an immediate hit!
3 teaspoons unflavored gelatin
2 tablespoons fat-free cottage cheese
4 oz. fat-free cream cheese
1 tablespoon white wine or apple cider vinegar
8 oz. fat-free sour cream
2 tablespoons chopped chives (or dried)
Salt & Pepper
1 jar of green asparagus spears, or one bunch fresh asparagus, steamed
1. Wash the leeks. Cut and discard the root and the dark green ends.
2. Steam leeks until tender. Drain well, and let cool on a paper towel.
3. Mix together the cottage cheese, cream cheese, and vinegar with a fork.
4. In a saucepan, heat the sour cream. Sprinkle the gelatin over the hot cream, and stir to dissolve. Combine with cottage cheese and cream cheese mixture.
5. Combine the cheese mixture with the chopped chives, season with salt and pepper to taste, and mix well.
6. Line a casserole dish or square pan with cellophane wrap, making sure to go over the edges.
7. Spread ¼ of the cheese mixture into the base of the mold. Press firmly, using the back of a spoon.
8. Cover with ½ the Asparagus spears, and lay another 1/4 of the cheese mixture on top.
9. Place a layer of the leeks, followed by another 1/4 of the cheese mixture, and then the rest of the
10. Cover with the last 1/4 of the cheese mixture, smooth with the back of a spoon, and refrigerate for 4 hrs.
11. Remove from the mold and serve.
As a Being of Light, I resolve to LIVE, LOVE AND BE HAPPY, at all costs, no matter what, with deep respect and kindness for all.. Only I can choose my path, and I choose this path of life, love and happiness! xoxo
My Hannah is now 7 and came home from school this week to share with me her observations about Christmas. She shared with me some very wonderful stories of God’s love and how they are present in her life and during the Christmas season.
One of these stories included the Christmas wreath… the circle represents God’s LOVE, as it never stops. The wreath is green, like a pine tree. A pine tree always stays green, just like God’s love for us is constant and will never end.
My heart sang with joy and as I listened to her… We spoke about how God is present with us during Christmas and why we celebrate Christmas.
As a Mom, I can only share my perspective and my own personal relationship with God. I can pass along information and HOPE that they find their own personal relationship with Our Lord. It was such an joyous experience to learn that my daughter has now opened her heart and felt the power of His love within her.
Life for me is about learning and always growing. Neale Donald Walsh said, “You are never who you were in the last moment. You are continually creating yourself from the field of infinite possibilities. You are, in every moment, born again. And so is everyone else.” I am so proud of My Hannah and My Nicholas. I am now learning from them and learning from their experience and personal relationship with God and how He works in their lives.
So on this Sunday, a day I always dedicate to my family, I wish to say “THANK YOU!!!!” to My 16 year old Nicholas and My 7 year old Hannah. I love you and love that we grow closer as a family each passing day and you enrich my life is ever way.
I came across this posting today from a FB posting from Archangel Metatron that I follow… it spoke truth to me and gives me strength as I often fight against ego. It’s my soul in which I continue to trust and will lead me to be a better person which I strive always to be.
The ego needs to define itself, to fight, to conquor, to battle, to win, to achieve, the soul however sits in quiet contemplation, it just is, it doesnt need anything to define itself for it is pure light, purity, divine…it is the ego that tries to conquer the soul…but does it not realise it will never win…for the soul is stronger, and sits and waits for the AHHH moment when we wake up and realise that we do not need to strengthen the ego..that the soul functions without it…if it would just give up the fight…for survival…the soul does not need to survive…it just is…all that is…..xx
….more from Archangel Metatron
The soul has one emotion..that of love, the ego well it holds so many, anxiety, fear, sadness, anquish, hatred, anger, frustration, jealousy, the list is endless….so over the next few days much may surface…as the ego feels the light getting stronger from within the soul….just allow yourself to be at peace within, become the watcher of what surfaces…for we are being cleansed, spiritually cleansed as we are lifted up on our ascension path, our light journey, feel the quickening 11/11/11 and then on 12/11/11 a period of calmness and then the days that follow there will be adjustments. just stand in your light and be kind to yourself…much rest, much time to relax and unwind…and adjust….and then you will see how strongly the connection has become…many changes, many new frequencies…behold the new dawning for mankind…it is upon us…xxx