My Journey to a Healthy New Beginning

…Always remember, you have within you the strength, the patience, and the passion to reach for the stars to change the world. (Harriet Tubman)

There was someone that I met today that out of nowhere started speaking to me about dreams. He also mentioned that it’s hardest to admit them to other. I have to admit that my inner dreams I do hold closest and sometime for fear that other’s will tease or poke fun of them.  In changing my point of view for so many things I know that’s it’s the dreamer that needs to be heard of more often.

Writing this blog allows me to put out into the world some of the things that I fear on the inside and I’ve learnt that it’s the things that scare me most, mean that I am taking action and moving towards change and the very things that I want.

Well, there was my babbling for today! I’ll get closer to rambling about some other dreams of mine soon enough.

The kids returned to school today and I am soooo very proud of both of them for differnt reasons. It’s today that makes me even prouder to be a Mom.. I really am so blessed to be a Mom of two amazing children. Nicholas who is 14 started grade 9 today and is going to kick butt this year- I just know it! My baby Hannah entered into SK and just loves her new teacher.. she had a great day at school and I was soooo excited to get home to hear all of their stories from the first day of school! Love you guys!

My car broke down (AGAIN!) yesterday and my Mom was sweet enough to allow me to borrow her’s yesterday to get to my nieces birthday party (HAPPY BIRTHDAY ISABELLE!!!) and then to work today… kids have their physicals’ with their doctor tomorrow morning.

So tonight I went out looking for a new car and was so happy to have met a really sweet (and good looking) salesman. He was so nice and helpful and very understanding of my situation… so hopefully by the end of this week (fingers crossed) I’ll have a new vehicle- well, maybe by mid week of next week.. lol! Did I mention that the sales guy (Dave) was good looking? First time I’ve actually noticed a good looking guy in quite and wouldn’t luck have it that I have to meet him in a proffessional setting and of course I was looking so drained from my day! LMAO! Oh well… maybe the next good looking guy that I might have interest in will ask me out Mayeeee!

Alrighty… well, I am off to bed with sweet dreams hopefully in store. My insomnia is still at bay and I am working on new EFT affirmations to get some sleep but haven’t found the right one yet. I know that it’s not the sleep, I know that it’s my stressful worries… I just need this acceptance for 2nd career this Friday.. Just need everything to be settled. Not to mention that i am in extreme pain during the night. At least the EFT is helping with the pain!

OH! and I went to look at portfolios this Saturday with my friend Jason and my baby Hannah to start working on my tattoo that I was mentioning So I booked an initial consultation for this Thursday… meet with her and get her working on some designs and then go back and pick it out then book another appointment for the actual tattoo.. I am still hoping to get it completed before Christmas and hopefully sooner- no rush though.. I want it to be perfect! It holds so much meaning for me and I am so exited!

Have an amazing night! All my blessings!

Xoxo

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Xoxo

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The poet Bliss Carman (1861-1929) once said, “There is only one way in the world to be distinguished. Follow your instinct! Be yourself, and you’ll be somebody. Be one more blind follower of the blind, and you will have the oblivion you desire.”

I love a few things about this poet… First he is Canadian and secondly I find him to be very inspirational.

This above quote really made me stop and think… It’s always been my personal opinion that poems speak differently to each of us. Even though the poet was speaking of something specific or from their heart it always translates a bit differently to the person reading it taking from their own life experiences.

It’s kind of like a really good book or prayer… the same lines can mean something differently to you during different stages of your life. When I read the above saying from Bliss Carman it spoke volumes to me in regards to my intuition. For years, as far back as I can remember and even hearing stories from my Mom and Dad I have always had very excellent intuition although it has taken my many years to perfect the art of listening and relying on it. Since learning to listen to my inner voice (my intuition) it has led me in the right direction each and every time.

Each species has and intuition but it is only the human race that makes excuses for their own inner voices. Too many times women are too afaird to be rude or follow it and often find themselves in very dangerous situations.. ladies, you know what I am speaking of. For example, you are in a building late in the evening with no one around waiting for an elevator.. the elevator opens and their is a man standing there. Your inner voice is screaming at you that there is “something off or wrong”… Do you get in because you don’t want to hurt the person’s feelings or seem rude? Or do you follow your intution and get in that sound proof elevator silencing your screaming inner voice?

Would you believe that many women get in the elevator? We are the ONLY species that would do this! Never would an animal make an excuse for their intuition and put themselves in a potentially dangerous situation.

Ok, yes I digressed just a wee bit! LOL…. Back to the quote by Bliss Carman - only since I began to truly follow my God give insticts (intuition/inner voice) have I started to have true confidence to know that it’s MY voice that matters. For the people that tell me “You can’t do that!” I say…. ”Why do you think I can’t?”  “Follow your instinct! Be yourself, and you’ll be somebody”

Please, I encourage you to re-read that above quote and ask yourself what it means to you. Does it speak to you? I also encourage you to begin listening and following that inner voice of yours and if you can’t hear it quiet your mind and listen closely because I promise it is there.

May your day be blessed and filled with abundance!

Xoxo

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I was out walking Rocky this morning and ran into Derek who he and his now wide were happily married yesterday.. these 2 people I have gotten to know just from our dogs beings friends (yes, I know that sounds funny) but they are such a perfect pair! Yesterday was their wedding and Derek told me that it was perfect! Jackie was such an amazing bride to be- she never seemed to lose sight of what the wedding day was for. The wedding day is a celebration of their lifetime ahead together. They had the ceremony downtown Ottawa in an intitmate gathering of friends of family of only 50 and really did it up in style.

I am so happy for the two of them and they are leaving for their honeymoon to the eastern townships and into the romantic Quebec City… Congrats Derek & Jackie! May you have a lifetime of happiness and fun for each other and I look forward to congratulating you on you 25th wedding anniversary!

Every Friday the neighbours and I get together to catch up and have drinks.. Friday was the Britney Spear concert so we pushed it out to last evening and there were 4 of us in total (all single girls) it was a lot of fun.. Typically I have always had guy friends growing up and never really did the girl time thing so it was really fun to hang out with all single girls last night, dating funny and nightmarish dating stories and I think it’s inspired me to really follow the book I wanted to do about “following a girl’s trials and tribulations in finding love” I think almost every girl would be able to relate and laugh along with it.

Anyhoo, my baby Hannah is coming home from her Dad’s house soon and Nicholas and I made a shephards pie for dinner… I am hoping to go for a bike ride with the kids and have some good ole family time. Then it’s off to a staff meeting for 5PM and back home to tuck in the kids and look forward to another amazing week ahead.

Hope you have an AMAZING day!

Xoxo

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I wanted to share this amazing story with you that I was lucky enough to experience today at work. A couple came in specifically looking for a pair of wedding bands to celebrate their upcoming 25th wedding anniversary and they wanted to embrace their celtic roots.

We quickly determinded their budget and what they were most interested in which was $500 each and gold preferrably. It was so much fun going through the rings and watched how the woman loved trying on the different bands and watching her husband as she enjoyed it so much. She kept asking what he liked and it was obvious that he would wear anything if it made her happy.

The rings they were trying on come directly from Ireland and customer ordered. Some of our other rings we do keep in stock and we finally landed on a GORGEOUS band that was silver/gold band with a celtic knot in the middle and it was IDENTICAL in both bands and it was obvious that the man really liked it as well… it looked amazing on both of them and it so happened that we had both bands in stock. The wife was sooo excited that she hugged her husband as she was just overwhelmed with excitement of the symbolism of them. 

Helping this couple was such a joy as their love for each other was a true testament of what marriage was really about. As we polished the bands for the couple they browsed through the rest of the store and then she wanted to take a look at our selection of Celtic Crosses… we have such an incredible selection and I find that picking out a cross is such a personal choice. I know that since I received my cross in Ireland and my friend Marty put it on me it’s a part of me. I had it blessed here at my Catholic Parish by Father Ross and it’s a daily reminder of my faith, roots and wonderful life!

The lady tried on a couple of celtic crossed and picked out a very unique one. It was a circle cross with celtic knots on each end- it was stunning on her. The husband encouraged her to get it as he always wore his that she has purchased for him about a year before.

Anyhoo… they purcahsed both bands and the necklace and the purchase was so perfect for them. Their original budget was $1000 and they walked out spending just under $300 in total. As he paid for the purchases he mentioned the cost and she reminded him that it wasn’t the cost that mattered. What touched my heart strings is that I could tell he would ensure he spent the full budget on his loving wife… I’d like to think maybe a romantic weekend or a lovely meal with some gorgeous flowers?

As I put the cross on her neck and they left the store they left hand in hand almost skipping along with happiness… it was soooo contagious and best of all their love was so prevalent for each other which is such a testament after 25 years of marriage.

It is that very love that I am seeking and why I have chosen to stay single. I want that love that is overwhelming and as time passes I grow closer to my soulmate. I want to thank this couple for sharing a part of their experience with me  today and wish them all the happiness for the next 25 years!

Well, thanks for letting me share that with you… It is still amazing that I love this job so much- it’s such a unique store and I get to share so many amazing experiences and help pick out perfect gifts for others and their family/friends. It’s such an inspiring place to be.

Now that I think of it, weddings seemed to be the theme of the day… I started off getting my bangs cut and ran into a bride getting ready at the hairdressers- she looked stunning and ended up being a friend of mine’s fiancee Sarah where my step-brother Ryan is a part of the wedding part (Congrats Mike and Sarah!!!) I listened to another bride to be and her mother explain the wedding and a cute little myth about preventing rain from the day of the wedding- apparently if you hang a rosary on a tree branch after dusk between 6PM and 12 midnight it will not rain the next day for your wedding- her photographer gave her this hint and said that it works every time.. Hmmmm… pretty cool advice. Another bride was in talking about green on the day of the wedding (this one was a bit funny as the mother in law was quite quirky) apparently if you wear green the fairies come and take you away- the mother of the bride wanted to put in the invitation that she didn’t want any guest to wear green so the green fairies wouldn’t take away the bride (now this made me laugh uncontrollablly after they left) I guess the other part of the tale is that the veil the bride wears help keep the faires away… someone might want to tell the mother of the bride this part of the tale as well! A who was in his late 70’s recovering from a stoke came in to pick up a kilt rental yesterday evevning for his WEDDING today… Did I mention I am still waiting for my soulmate to find me? LOL… I think we are getting closer

Have and AMAZING evening!

Xoxo

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I thought I’d be upset to give up attending this games this weekend but I get to be surrounded still with Scotland and Ireland as I’ll be working tomorrow.

If you want to have an amazing day at a low cost head on out to see the Higland Games in Almonte- they are always such a blast!!!

I was talking with my sister-in-law earlier this evening before she was heading out the door to go to the Britney Spears Concert and it was so good to know I have her support with going back to school.. Yes, it’s been overwhelming- there are sooo many changes and they are all happening at once. Going back to school, new job, new income level… there are so many new things that I have tackled and although I always come off looking quite confident on the outside I am usually shaking on the inside and feeling quite queasy. I remember my first week in going back to summer school after being out of school for 13 years. I felt like vomitting every single day for the first week… but I pushed forward giving it my best and kept telling myself that as long as I tried my best there was no such thing as failure. When all was said and done it was an amazing feeling of accomplishment. I succeed.. I pushed myself, got through it and finished with an amazing mark and sense of accomplishment that is better than anything.

From that I have continued to push and believe and with that I have continued to push many boundaries- some that I didn’t even know had. With this new chapter so close I am so excited to begin… I am sure the nerves will set in soon enough but my excitement is so overwhelming that I think its pushing the nerves aside. LOL- I guess we’ll see.

Again, I am so surprized with all the amazing things that are transpiring in my life right now and it was sooo amazing to have Jenn’s support this evening and to hear how excited she is for me. Thanks Jenn! Love ya!

Completely off topic.. tonight for dinner I brought home from The Scottish and Irish Store some Irish Baps and Beef Sausauge Links… I cooked the links and put them on the Baps topped with Mozza cheese and HP sauce and a fresh salad.. OMG, it was delish!!! Soooo very delicious.. the Baps were sooooo fresh and yummy! Thought I would share

Hugs

Xoxo

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For almost 4 years now I have wanted to add to my collection of tattoos. The tattoo that I have deperately wanted came from my desire while going through my cancer treatments. As part of my therapy I would visualize a healthy new me and I would visualize roaming the hillsides of Scotland for the anniversary of my 2nd year of being cancer free. Since my 2nd vacation to PEI I became obsessed with the celtic cross- it seemed like such the perfect combination of my Christian faith and obsession with my roots from Scotland.

See the problem was that I was weary about getting a tattoo in such a public place.. I want it on the inside wrist of my right arm. Well, for the past year I have been unable to get this new tattoo off my mind and since returning from Scotland and Ireland I have been designing it in my mind.

When I was in Ireland I purchased a silver celtic cross and haven’t taken it off since- it brings me such peace of mind and a love of another country (well, Scotland and Ireland) and reminds me at a deeper level my faith. I had Father Ross bless my celtic cross a couple of Sunday’s ago at mass and it now holds even more meaning for me

Well, I’ve booked a consultation with an artist ranked best in 5 years for designs and will work to make this perfect tattoo a reality before Christmas- I am soooo excited!

The basic design involves a standard Christian cross with a Celtic knot placed over the area where both lines cross over. I’d like the border of the cross to be surrounded by a series of Celtic knots and would love to incorporate the dove in the center and circle around. (powerful symbol of the never ending nature of human life, while the knot itself represents the joining together of the physical and spiritual worlds.) For past and present I love what the celtic cross stands for and I am so anxious for this to be a part of me!

….LOL, well there is another very random fact about me!

Xoxo

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This summer has been a whirlwind- literally! … and I’ve loved every single moment. Since creating my dream board a few months ago and believing that anything can happen in my life when I am ready my life has transformed in amazing leaps and bounds. In a quick (very quick) glance here is a little bit of what the universe has brought my way.

End of June I had the courage to write down my dream job~ 2 days later I was introduced to 2nd Career ~ Went to Algonquin and registered for 3 amazing programs ~ Next day signed up for highschool summer school to upgrade a credit in a 3 week reach ahead course for grade 11 university level biology ~ 3 weeks later (so very intense) I passed receiving a very respectable 78% ~ 1 week later I was accepted into Recreation and Leisure Services at Algonquin ~ 1 day later I was grocery shopping at The Scottish and Irish Store preparing for my Dad’s visit and met a very amazing lady who I ended up speaking to about a job part time ~ 4 days later I was offered a job at the amazing Scottish Irish Store on the same day my Dad arrived into town and I started my new job yesterday! Love it!

Funny thing is that I asked for it all… great thing is that I released my wants to the universe and was assured that they would find their way to me. Well, LOA did exactly that! I couldn’t have aligned all of this if I had tried to… Just more proof that you need to release control of your wants. If you try to control them you limit the outcome.

Well, I am embarking on my new journey at this very moment and will starting school in September. I am happy then I’ve ever been and just spent an incredible week with my father and had such a blast! I am hoping to download some of the photos tomorrow.

Sorry that I have been out of touch but I have been so incredibly busy and I’ve missed sharing my adventures with you. New adventures to come! Promise!

Love ya!

Xoxo

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Some have hated the rain but with the rain comes rainbows; brillant amazing rainbows! It’s been a brillant summer. I finished summer school on the 24th and received my final mark on the Monday where I found out that I received a 78%.

I’ve decided to persue Recreation and Leisure Services at college in the fall and VERY excited about this next chapter in my life story.

My Dad is coming to town on Monday and we are all very excited! We are in count down mode- 4 more sleeps! Hannah hasn’t seen her Bubba since October and that was such a whirlwind due to the wedding.

…. well, not long to post as I am running out the door. Just wanted to give a quick HELLO!

“Hello!” Love ya’ll!

Yours in abundance,

Xoxo

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